Intro- Hi! I’m Julie! I’m a 34 year old Chicago girl blogging about singleness, my own health issues, life in general and probably books too! I’m a Enneagram 4 with a 5 wing that loves to read. My faith in Jesus is central to who I am so my posts will reflect that. I don’t back down from the hard things in life either😊 Thanks for coming along for the ride!
“The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.” Audrey Hepburn. I can’t describe the fear I feel every time I go to get my eyes and specifically my retinas checked every 2 years or so. The thoughts that fill my mind of “maybe it’s worse, I’m in my 30’s now.” The hope that one day, a surgeon would be able to fix them somehow. The pain of having the retinal specialist shine bright lights in my eyes through a magnifying glass that makes them hurt a thousand times worse, for hours afterward. The frustration and, yes, shame I feel reading the eye chart and only knowing it’s an A through my right eye because it’s a blurry outline I can barely make out and am guessing at, relieved when I do get it right. The relief I feel getting to the 5th line on the eye chart with my left eye, my good eye. Like my Dad posted, I was told last Wednesday my vision in my right eye had decreased by a good amount, and it scared me. So I spent a very stressful weekend pouring out my worries about my vision and asking for prayer from family and friends. I found out today with the optometrist that it was a mistake, thankfully, and my eyes are stable and my vision RX is the same, my right retina is stable. I am glad my Dad was there with me when the optometrist told me the news because it’s in those moments where I’m faced with hard things that I’m at my weakest emotionally. And it’s where God, in His mercy, is strongest. Someday I won’t need glasses. Someday my eyes will be perfect and I will look into the eyes of Jesus and I’ll see Him perfectly with no split retina or astigmatism. And as good as I look in glasses now, I can’t wait til then. Thankful for everyone that prays for me or thinks of me, so much love to all of you, family/friends/church/my small group. I could not survive without you all💗💗
“The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides.” Audrey Hepburn. I can’t describe the fear I feel every time I go to get my eyes and specifically my retinas checked every 2 years or so. The thoughts that fill my mind of “maybe it’s worse, I’m in my 30’s now.” The hope that one day, a surgeon would be able to fix them somehow. The pain of having the retinal specialist shine bright lights in my eyes through a magnifying glass that makes them hurt a thousand times worse, for hours afterward. The frustration and, yes, shame I feel reading the eye chart and only knowing it’s an A through my right eye because it’s a blurry outline I can barely make out and am guessing at, relieved when I do get it right. The relief I feel getting to the 5th line on the eye chart with my left eye, my good eye. Like my Dad posted, I was told last Wednesday my vision in my right eye had decreased by a good amount, and it scared me. So I spent a very stressful weekend pouring out my worries about my vision and asking for prayer from family and friends. I found out today with the optometrist that it was a mistake, thankfully, and my eyes are stable and my vision RX is the same, my right retina is stable. I am glad my Dad was there with me when the optometrist told me the news because it’s in those moments where I’m faced with hard things that I’m at my weakest emotionally. And it’s where God, in His mercy, is strongest. Someday I won’t need glasses. Someday my eyes will be perfect and I will look into the eyes of Jesus and I’ll see Him perfectly with no split retina or astigmatism. And as good as I look in glasses now, I can’t wait til then. Thankful for everyone that prays for me or thinks of me, so much love to all of you, family/friends/church/my small group. I could not survive without you all💗💗
So happy to see you here, Julie! Such a good debut post/pic :) You light up the blogosphere!
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